Wednesday, May 25, 2022
God versus Godhood
Friday, May 13, 2022
The Four Pillars of Meherabad
Vishnu came into Meher Baba’s contact as a teenage boy in 1918, and from the days of Manzil-e-Meem in 1922, he was always with Baba. His almost forty years of service, love and obedience to the God-Man were as close to perfect as perfect can be described. His mother, Kakubai, had died in Meherabad, and now Vishnu had laid aside his body at the Beloved’s side. Vishnu was incomparable in forbearance, and Baba was always pleased with him. Even under the most trying circumstances, he would never utter a word of complaint, and he put up with every hardship. Vishnu was called “One of the four pillars of Meherabad,” along with Adi, Pendu and Padri. Among the men, he was sorely missed.
The above is a quote from this source. In reading “Lord Meher” it’s sometimes difficult to clearly distinguish between the different mandali. I’m prompted in this post to explore the life of this pillar of Meherabad, using Meher Baba’s Life and Travels as my source of information. Vishnu Deorukhar was also known as “Bazaar-Master,” because he did the marketing for many years at Meherabad, Meherazad and other headquarters. Figure 1 shows a photo of him. The text following is taken from the just quoted source and is reproduced in full because it’s difficult to read on the actual site. I took a screenshot of the text and then used Google Keep to grab the text from the image. It did a good job and I only needed to make a few minor corrections.
One day while Baba was distributing prasad, a boy came forward, holding out his hands. Before he could leave, Baba asked him, “Where is your father!” Young Vishnu told Baba that his father had died and that he lived with his mother. Baba told the lad, “From now on I am your father” With these words Baba sealed the connection, which proved to be lifelong. Soon after this Vishnu’s mother, who was cooking Baba His lunch each day, complained that her son was associating with a bad group of boys and going to movies. Immediately Baba set off to the neighborhood theater, caught the boy, and slapped him several times. Shocked, Vishnu protested that he had bought the ticket with his own money. “But did you ask me if you could go to the movies? Baka scolded him. “Didn’t I tell you that I would be your father!”
From that time on, Vishnu knew that he could not do anything without Baba’s permission. Four years later, in early 1923 Vishnu was called to join Baba as one of His mandali at the Marsil-e-Meem in Bombay; and a year after that he came to live with Baba at Meherabad. During this period Baba designated Vishnu as bazaar-wali responsible for shopping and keeping the accounts. And this duty stuck throughout the years, whether Baba was on tour, in Meherabad, in Meherazad, in Guruprasad, or other places.
Vishnu accompanied Baba on His first trip to Persia in 1929 and during His sensational, high-profile visit to the West in 1932. On other tours during this phase of Baba’s intensive world travel, He assigned Vishnu the duty of sending Him a daily telegram reporting on the routine activities and health of the mandali back in the ashram. If Vishnu happened to miss a day, Baba would demand, “What happened! Why hasn’t Vishnu sent the telegram! And Baba would have His own telegram sent out asking the reason for the lapse.
From the mid-1920s until he passed anang, Vishnu was closely associated with Meherabad. Indeed, he was one of the “Four Pillars of Meherabad,” along with Padri, Pendu, and Adi Senior. Baba give them this title in the great meetings in August 1949 in which He announced the New Life. During those meetings Vishnu came forward as one of the “yes-walis” and set out with Baba as one of His twenty companions on October 16.
After the New Life Vishnu continued in his role as one of Baba’s resident mandali. He was one of Baba’s fellow-travelers when He met with His second automobile accident in Satara in December 1956. When Eruch regained consciousness and staggered out of the car with broken ribs in the accidents immediate aftermath, he asked Vishnu, who was the least hurt, what had happened. But it seems that Vishru had experienced a vision of Baba in His universal body, surrounded by effulgent light. Stunned by what he had witnessed, Vishnu could only speak to Eruch about the radiance of Baba’s face, who had appeared to him like Krishnu triumphant on the battlefield of Kurukshetra! Perhaps Baba had granted him some glimpse of the inner dimensions of His Avataric working on that momentous occasion.
A “smallish man of regal bearing” as Mani afterwards described him, Vishnu kept a low profile among Baba’s mandali, but was one of the stalwarts in His work. His body now tests in the men’s graveyard in Lower Meherabad next to the grave of his fellow disciple and longtime friend Nilu.
The author of Meher Baba’s Life and Travels makes the odd statement on the site that Meher Baba claimed the Vishnu was Napoleon Bonaparte in a previous life. However, a reading of Lord Meher (page 2209 online edition) makes it clear that this is not the case. What Baba actually said was:
Meanwhile, at Laksar, the men mandali had to change trains with Chatti Baba, who refused to board it. The train was about to leave when Vishnu thought of this trick: He told the mast, “We are trying to take you back to your native place, but we can’t, if you won’t board the train.” The ruse worked and Chatti Baba happily climbed on board. When Baba heard of it, he laughed, and joked, “Vishnu is short and does all the work of marketing and travel arrangements. But now I see that not only does he look like Napoleon and labor like Napoleon — even his brain works like Napoleon’s!”
Friday, February 25, 2022
Remembering Meher Baba's Birthday
Today marks the 128th anniversary of The Ancient One. To celebrate I'll relate a most interesting incident that was reported in the book I read recently about Harry Kenmore's life with Baba. I made a post about my reaction to the book in a post titled Harry Kenmore. The incident occurred some months after Baba's death and I've taken the liberty of quoting from the book:
Tape Transcription - Sunday, August 24, 1969
Eruch and Harry are walking along the Khajgi Rasta Road
engaged in conversation about Baba and His work with the
lepers, when they meet an old Indian farmer. Later they realize
that looks can be deceiving.
Eruch: "Jai Baba. Here is an old man who wants to shake hands."
They are addressing a man they meet on the road. He had a red
turban on his head.
Harry: “He's a big man, isn't he? How tall is he?”
Eruch: “Just feel him, just see his shoulders.”
Harry: “How tall is he, about six foot.”
Eruch: “About six foot two inches, I'd say.”
Harry: “He's a big man in these parts.”
Eruch: "He's an old man too."
Harry: “And what does he do, is he retired?”
Eruch asks the man in an Indian language. The man replies to
Eruch that he does field work. Eruch: “He's a farmer.”
Harry: “Oh, he's a farmer.”
The man laughs.
Harry: "Oh, up in this town, a town nearby?”
Eruch: “Near Yoshindi.”
Harry: “Hmm, How old is he?”
Eruch asks his age and the man says seventy-five.
Harry: “Seventy-five.” Eruch and Harry are laughing. “My God
isn't that a very, very ripe old age.”
Eruch: “Very old age, but he is so strong and hefty.”
Now the man is laughing again.
Harry: “Oh, so strong. He understands English?”
Eruch: “No, no, he says from the gestures he understands."
The man continues to laugh.
Harry: “Oh I see he has a good laugh.”
Eruch: "Jai Baba."
Harry: “Namaste, Jai Baba. Oh he knows Baba.”
Eruch: “Hmm.”
Harry: “He's quite a happy old man isn't he?”
Eruch: "He wanted to embrace us.
Harry: “He did really?”
Eruch: “So, I said simply shake hands.”
Harry: “Why, just because he's a happy fellow?”
Eruch: “No, no, not a happy fellow. I don't know what it is.”
Harry: "Something he saw in us?”
Eruch: “He just came. He was walking on the side road. He came
with all smiles and his arms spread out as if he came to embrace
us."
Harry laughs and says, “Maybe because it's Sunday!”
Eruch: “God, no."
Harry: “You've never seen him?”
Eruch: “No, I haven't seen him. He looked very hefty. How did you
recognize he was hefty?”
Harry: “His distance of his hand above me and the size of his hand,
and the manner in which he shook my hand I could tell that he's
a big fellow. That's pretty good isn't it?”
Eruch: "It's common sense.”
Harry: “Yeah, I mustn't give away my secrets."
They resume the conversation they had before they met the
man.
Tape Transcription – Tuesday, August 26, 1969
The women mandali and Harry are talking about the things he
did during his stay and the unique experience he had with the
farmer.
Harry: “... ...And then we had the, let's see, the walks were very
fine. Did Eruch tell you about the interesting experience we had
Sunday morning? I think it was Sunday morning.”
Mani: “Yes.”
Meheru: “Mehera said she would like to hear it.”
Harry: "Well, this is what happened. We were walking up on the
road along the Rasta. This was Sunday morning and of course,
Eruch did not alert me to it. But a tall man approached us. He
seemed to come out of nowhere. He had on a white dhoti and a
white shirt with an attractive red turban. He was dressed simply
but he was clean. He looked up and he approached us with
outstretched arms. So Eruch stopped us and I asked what are we
stopping for? He said there's a man here who wants to embrace
us.
Mani: “Yes.”
Harry: “You know, we had met farmers on the road and other
people before, but they usually just say Jai Baba and they go on
their way. Or Eruch may have a few words in Marathi about
something - their crops or what not and then they go on their
way. But this gentleman was different, you see.”
Mani: "It's most unusual."
Harry: "Eruch said he wants to embrace us. So Eruch said, wait
shake hands with him. So he put his hand out and we shook
hands. The way he shook hands, it was just as though it was
Baba. And he spoke in a very cryptic tone, very terse answers.
Just one word answers. I said where are you from? He said,
Shinti. I said, what's your occupation? He said, farmer. You
know, just one word.”
Mani: "Yes.”
Harry: “Then I said how old are you? He said seventy-five. Then,
where's your chin” Harry says to Mani. “Then he took hold of
my chin, the way Baba did in playing with me - just like this.”
Mani: “My gosh!”
Harry: “You know, playing just like this. He was very happy,
smiling and we shook hands again. And the rhythm, give me
your hand.” He took Mani's hand. “The rhythm of the hand was
the way Baba would shake hands with me, you know.” Harry
demonstrated to Mani an up and down motion.
Mehera: “Isn't that wonderful.”
Harry: "Well, and then he said jaja - now you can finish your
walk.
Now a farmer never does that.”
Mani: "No."
Harry: “And He didn't seem to have a farmer's hand. You know,
they never say jaja they say, Jai Baba, they bow and they leave.
But he said jaja - keep going with you walk. Just like that he
went down the road. Unfortunately I didn't ask Eruch to turn
back to see if he was in sight. I swear if he had turned around I
bet in ten seconds, he would have been gone. Just like that.
What happened was I was thinking about it all day. Eruch, I
think was thinking about it too. Then in the evening he said, “Do
you remember that fellow on the road that we met with the red
turban?' Then I said, do you think he was an Abdul or
something?” Eruch said, 'No, I don't know. It might have been
Baba because he was very happy, smiling.'
Mani: “And he also laughed.”
Harry: “Yes, as if to say you fool, don't you recognize me or that
kind of an attitude. Eruch also said the same thing. And he only
had business to do with me. Not with Eruch.”
Mani: "No!”
Harry: “You see.
Mehera: Baba told you to come to Meherazad, not to Poona, so
Baba wanted to give you Darshan.”
Harry: “So I said to Eruch, why didn't you let him embrace us
when he came over to us? Eruch said, 'Well, you know how are
you to know what might sing out of something.' I said, “That's
ridiculous he came in a very friendly manner, alright!”
Mani: “I'll tell you something. When Eruch told me the story that
morning, I thought that Eruch usually understates things like this
then over. But even when he began telling me, and he told me
how that man looked, he said something strange happened this
morning. He said, 'Harry and I met this native and he was quite
unusual; he did unusual things. First, he approached us with his
arms out stretched towards Harry and wanted to embrace him.'
Eruch said he was so startled. It was all so sudden that he
automatically put out his hand to stop him. He said to the man,
“What do you want?' But even while Eruch was telling me this,
it was very strange to hear it. One had such a thrill of not
knowing what was coming. Now, after I heard the whole story I
came and told Mehera. Even as I began to tell her, she had that
same kind of look in her eye as I had when Eruch was telling
me. Because she had the same feeling that it was Baba.”
Harry: “Do you think it was Baba?”
Mani: “Yes, I have thought that. I told Mehera and I only just began
telling her that they met a man.”
Harry: “Do you think it was Baba?”
Mehera: "I felt it was Baba."
At this point Harry becomes very animated and excited in his
voice.
Harry: “Fantastic! Because he was a tall gentleman about six foot
or six foot two. He was cleanly dressed, simple but clean with a
properly tied turban. He had just a turban on his head - a red
turban.”
Mani: "We who know natives feel it is most unusual for a man to
come and shake hands like that and come and do that.”
Harry: “Do that, he did that just the way Baba used to do, when He
used to say, 'Oh you haven't shaved.'You know.'
Harry is referring to the times when Baba and he used to
compare the closeness of their shaves, and how Baba would
stroke Harry's chin.
Mani: “Apart from that he didn't say, oh, I know he's a doctor or
who are you, or Ram Ram or anything like that.”
Mehera said, “Did he ask any questions?”.
Harry: “No. But why didn't Eruch let him embrace me. I don't
understand it.”
Mani: “Eruch was also looking down, he was talking to you and
then suddenly he was there, you see. And you had your
apparatus there and suddenly it was automatic for him to do that.
He did contact you, he shook hands.”
Harry: "Oh definitely.”
Mani: "It's the same thing.”
Meheru: “Harry, Mehera says that because you didn't come for the
Darshan in April, Baba's giving you Darshan here.”
Harry laughs heartily and says, “You think that was Baba?”
Mehera: “Yes, definitely!”
Harry: “Really fantastic. I know he wasn't a farmer.”
Mehera: “He took the form of a farmer to come to you.”
Harry: “I said how old are you? What's your age? He said seventy-
five.”
Mehera: “Seventy-five was Baba's
age.”
Harry: “Seventy-five and it was cryptic, a terse answer. He gave
one word answers. He was giggling, laughing, you know, very
happy. Eruch said he was looking at him as though with the
attitude. Fool don't you know who I am? Don't you recognize
me?” Harry says this with a laugh in his voice.
Meheru: “Mehera says a native usually never knows their age and
even if they did they would never outright say it.”
Harry: "He said seventy-five.”
Mehera: “Baba's age. Yes, more signs that Baba gave to you and
yet you did not recognize Him.”
Harry: “I'll be dog gone! That might have been Baba.
Unfortunately, I just didn't remember. Eruch and I were deep in
a certain discussion about Baba.”
Mani: “Baba meant for you to be engrossed and not look back.'
Harry: “That's it, because somehow I didn't say turn around to see
if you could see him. I bet you if he turned around, in ten
seconds, he would have be gone. I bet you he wouldn't have
been on the road. We were on a long stretch of the Rasta road
and you could see way down the road. There were no side roads,
you see. We were right on that main road.”
Meheru: “You didn't get it on your baby either?
Harry: “I don't think so. I think when he stopped, I shut my baby
off. Because we'd been stopped on the road so many times I
figured this is just another incident. So I didn't catch it on the
baby. But he spoke low, like he didn't want to reveal his voice.”
This encounter was caught on Harry's 'baby'. And the previous
taped transcription of Harry and Eruch meeting the farmer with
the red turban was the actual encounter.
Meheru: “What was the voice like Harry?”
Harry: “Well, it was very..... I'll tell you one thing he was very
happy and he was giggling. He was very happy, you know. He
was giggling about something.”
Mani: “You said the hand wasn't like a farmer's.”
Harry: “It wasn't a farmer's. No. It almost felt a little bigger, like
the shape of Baba's hand.”
Mani: “I'll tell you something, a farmer who was seventy-five
years old, his hands would be very much like a farmers.”
Harry: “Oh, this is no farmer. He was straight, he was vigorous,
you know, vigorous, no question about it. There was vigor,
strength and clarity about him. There was nothing old about him.
He was very self-contained and had tremendous self-confidence.
Everything about him was different. He was just different.”
Mani: “And the way he was laughing, he was enjoying the joke,
you see.”
Harry: “He was giggling and he was very happy. And the way he
said jaja, you know.”
Mani: “Keep going”
Harry: “Go on with your walk.”
Harry laughs.
Meheru: “No farmer would have said that.'
Harry: “No farmer, so I knew he wasn't a farmer. So I kept thinking
about it and thinking about it. And I said was he an Abdul, you
know. Eruch said, “No I think it was Baba.' I said, I thought of
that but I don't know.”
Mani: “The jaja was accompanied by gestures, as Eruch showed us.
It was very much like Baba's.”
Harry: “Oh, really?”
Mani: “He said more than that to Eruch, take him for a walk; go on
with your walk.”
Mani demonstrates the gesture to Harry with Harry's own
hands.
Harry: “Fantastic!”
Mehera: “Wonderful experience you had.”
Harry: "It was a marvelous experience. Let's see I think it
happened that morning.”
Mehera: “On Sunday?”
Harry: “Last Sunday morning. So probably that was my Darshan
with Baba, I don't know.”
Mehera: “It shows that Baba is happy with you. He loves you.”
Harry: “Yes, you really feel that was Baba?”
Mehera: "Yes, yes definitely!”
Harry: “Fantastic!”
Mehera: “Baba could take any form He wants.”
Harry: “Any form, ah, I see, because he came taller. He was about
six foot two."
Mehera: “Yes.”
Harry: "He was chesty with broad shoulders. He was a fine looking
man.”
Mani: “Mehera says no Hindu, let alone a farmer, would do this.”
Harry: "He just took my chin, just the way Baba would, just like
that.”
Mani: "No stranger would just approach like that with arms
outstretched. They would first say Ram, Ram, where are you
going? They always go round about.”
Harry: “It was as though he was expecting us on the road. He came
with outstretched arms. I don't remember if I shook hands with
him a second time, I don't remember. It was all so quick.”
Meheru: “He both hid his identity and revealed it at the same time.”
Harry: “I see it was a wonderful experience.”
Mani: “Even shaking hands, a farmer would know that they don't
shake hands. He might have come like this. No, they don't shake
hands."
Harry: “No, he came with his hands just like that. And the rhythm
was like Baba's.”
Mani: “By the time a farmer is seventy-five he would have such
gnarled hands."
Harry: “It was like the shape of Baba's hand
the broad palm.
Because in November, 1968 Baba must have shaken hands with
me three, four or five times. We'd shake hands and He'd say,
'It's a deal.' Then He'd be talking and again He would say, 'It's
a deal.' That's the first time Baba asked me to shake hands with
Him, which was last November.”
Mani: “Oh really?”
Harry: "Oh, yes.”
Mani: “Ah, you mean Baba put out His hand first.”
Harry: “Baba indicated through Eruch, that He wanted to shake
hands. It's a deal, and Baba would say, it's a deal.”
They continued their conversation but now they were asking
Harry how many times he was embraced by Baba.
Tuesday, February 08, 2022
The Ancient of Days
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Figure 1: The Ancient of Days by William Blake (1794) |
In my mid-twenties I had a quite large poster of Blake's "The Ancient of Days" that adorned the walls of the various abodes in which I lived during those years. To quote Wikipedia:
Ancient of Days is a name for God in the Book of Daniel. The title "Ancient of Days" has been used as a source of inspiration in art and music, denoting the creator's aspects of eternity combined with perfection. William Blake's watercolour and relief etching entitled The Ancient of Days is one such example. This term appears three times in the Book of Daniel (7:9, 13, 22), and is used in the sense of God being eternal.
I beheld till the thrones were cast down, and the Ancient of Days did sit, whose garment was white as snow, and the hair of his head like the pure wool: his throne was like the fiery flame, and his wheels as burning fire.
Daniel 7:9
In this sense, "The Ancient of Days" is more akin to what Meher Baba termed "The Beyond the Beyond State of God" in his book "God Speaks". However, Christians nowadays clearly associate the phrase with Jesus. In the well-known song "Ancient of Days" by CityAlight this is clearly the case, although Jesus is not mentioned explicitly:
Ancient of Days
Though the nations rage, kingdoms rise and fall
There is still one King reigning over all
So I will not fear for this truth remains
That my God is, the Ancient of Days
None above Him, none before Him
All of time in His hands
For His throne it shall remain and ever stand
All the power, all the glory
I will trust in His name
For my God is, the Ancient of Days
Though the dread of night overwhelms my soul
He is here with me, I am not alone
O His love is sure, and He knows my name
For my God is, the Ancient of Days
None above Him, none before Him
All of time in His hands
For His throne it shall remain and ever stand
All the power, all the glory
I will trust in His name
For my God is, the Ancient of Days
Though I may not see what the future brings
I will watch and wait for the Saviour King
Then my joy complete, standing face to face
In the presence of the Ancient of Days
None above Him, none before Him
All of time in His hands
For His throne it shall remain and ever stand
All the power, all the glory
I will trust in His name
For my God is, the Ancient of Days
For my God is, the Ancient of Days
Source: Musixmatch
Ancient of Days
Saw you shining in the sun this morning
Saw you shining in the moon at night
Saw you shining in the sun this morning
Saw vou shining in the moon at night
Ancient of days, ancient of days, ancient of day a a a ays
Saw you standing by the winding river
Saw you standing by the shining stream
Saw you standing by the winding river
Saw you standing bv the shining stream
Ancient of days, ancient of days, ancient of day a a a ays
Felt you stirring in my heart this morning
Felt you moving in my heart at night
Felt you stirring in my heart this morning
Felt you moving in my heart at night
Ancient of days, ancient of days, ancient of day a a a ays
Saw you shining in the sun this morning
Saw you shining in the starry night
Saw you shining in the sun this morning
Saw you shining in the starry night
Ancient of days, ancient of days, ancient of day a a a ays
Meher Baba often referred to himself as "The Ancient One":
"I was Ram, I was Krishna. I was this One, I was that One, and now I am Meher Baba. In this form of flesh and blood I am that same Ancient One who alone is eternally worshiped and ignored, ever remembered and forgotten."
Lord Meher Online Edition
"I belong to no religion. Every religion belongs to me. My own personal religion is of my being the Ancient Infinite One, and the religion I teach to all is of love for God. This love can be practiced by anyone, high, low, rich, poor; and everyone of every caste and creed can love God. The one God who resides equally in us all is approachable to everyone through love. So I give my blessings that at least some of you will love God as He is to be loved."
Lord Meher Online Edition
"I am the Ancient One. I came as Ram in the world. I was Krishna and Muhammad. And I was the Christ who was crucified."
Lord Meher Online Edition
"People say that I am the Avatar, but when it is impossible for rishis and munis to understand me, how can they know me? Only the Perfect Masters know me. I am that Ancient One — Zoroaster, Ram, Krishna, Buddha, Jesus, Muhammad. But how will you know that I am the Adi Purush [Supreme Power]? Rare are those who have the fortune to know me. So do one thing. Leave the thought of understanding me altogether. Love me, obey me; that is all. "
Lord Meher Online Edition
"I am the Ancient One, the one residing in every heart. Undoubtedly, I am the Ancient One. So if you love others, make others happy, serve them even at discomfort to yourself, you would be loving me, the Beloved residing in every individual heart."
Lord Meher Online Edition
The Van Morrison song would be impossible for me to sing but the CityAlight song is relatively easy to play. Here is the Ultimate Guitar link to the chords. Baba also referred to himself as the Avatar but this term has become somewhat debased by its association with an icon or figure representing a particular person in video games, internet forums, etc. and also the James Cameron movie "Avatar". Therefore the term "The Ancient One" is preferable to both "Avatar" and "God", both of which terms carry a lot of baggage.
That's not to say that "The Ancient One" doesn't have any baggage. It does. For instance, in the Marvel Cinematic Universe:
The Ancient One was the Sorcerer Supreme as well as the leader of the Masters of the Mystic Arts. For centuries, the Ancient One protected Earth from mystical threats, and dedicated herself to helping others in need by educating them in the magical arts to give them new hope.
Tuesday, January 25, 2022
Harry Kenmore
Figure 1: source |
Harry Kenmore's blindness at the age of sixteen changed his life. After meeting Meher Baba in 1956, the path of his life was again altered because now he found God, Meher Baba. His love and devotion led him to serve Baba as his chiropractor after Baba's second automobile accident on December 2nd 1956, in Satara India. We learn about Harry's journey to become Baba's doctor, entertainer, friend and intimate mandali throughout the next thirteen years. Through the intimate taped conversations, cables and letters between Harry, Baba and the mandali and also talks by Harry to various Baba groups, we gain insight into Harry's life as his relationship evolves with his Pop, Meher Baba.
"You don't know how much I love you Harry. You have become one of the intimate mandali. So I want you, for the remaining period that is, in between now and My Manifestation, which has not much time now, to just be as the mandali. Like My mandali, remain during this period between now and My Manifestation as mandali. So that when I break My Silence, when I Manifest, the few handful of the mandali can realize Me as I am. You too will realize Me as I am, not the world." Meher Baba November 2nd 1968
Figure 2: Harry with Baba |
Figure 3: Baba standing with Francis, Eruch and Harry |
Figure 4: Harry with Eruch (behind him), Aloba and Bhau (standing), Francis and Pendu. |
Figure 5: chart drawn up using Astrolog |
Harry had his first meeting with Baba in July, 1956 at the Delmonico Hotel in Manhattan and attended the dinner held for Baba at the Longchamp’s restaurant, then again at The Meher Spiritual Center in Myrtle Beach, South Carolina. He immediately recognized Meher Baba as his true Beloved and as Almighty God in human form. When Harry had his interview with Baba, in the Lagoon Cabin in 1956, he asked Baba why was he blind in this life? He told Baba that he was able to look back into his past four lifetimes and could not find any karmic reason for this blindness. Baba said, “That if you had not become blind in this life you would have become a great, world renowned surgeon, and then you would have had no reason to search for me. I gave you these vidnyani sanskaras so you would have to meet me in this Advent.” After this meeting with Baba, Harry became resigned to his blindness. Baba also told Harry that he had been one of His Generals when He was Shivaji – a minor Avataric incarnation, in India. And Harry had been a very fierce warrior.
Monday, January 17, 2022
Personality and Perfection
I once entertained the notion that those who are spiritually advanced must display a calm and pleasant personality. My early interest in Buddhism sustained this because Siddhartha Gautama, once He attained enlightenment, was in my understanding imperturbably calm in the face of all adversities and frustrations.
It was thanks to Meher Baba that I was disabused of this notion. As Baba explained:
In the evening some of the other mandali asked Baba whether the nature of a person changes after the divine experience of Realization. A long discussion ensued, and in the end the Master clarified the matter in relation to the personality of Hafiz:
Even after Realization, a man's nature is the same but in a different way. In the normal human state, his anger, his curses, his strong language and his mannerisms express themselves because of his ego. Where there is ego, there is no God; and where there is God, there is no ego. For this reason, the words and deeds of a Perfect One are egoless.
But his special nature and personality remain the same, even after Realization, and when expressed due to some mood, they are of the greatest benefit to others.
This is the meaning of Hafiz's couplet:
At one time I craved to see various things;
But since I saw you, I no longer desire to see anything else!
This means that the nature to see is still there. Before, Hafiz craved to see a variety of different subjects; after the divine sight, he longed only to see God. It means: The desire of seeing remains the same but undergoes a change after becoming egoless.
Suppose a man is in the habit of getting angry and beating other people. His nature will remain the same even if he turns into a saint, but the change is beyond imagination. Behind his anger there is now no self-interest. It is simply an impulse with divinity behind it. It comes from the divine flow, and anyone who comes in contact with it is greatly benefited.
For us mere mortals however, it doesn't mean that we shouldn't strive to bring the more ugly features of our personality under control. When we act out our anger, we disturb those around us and create more sanskaras for ourselves. At the same time, Baba is quick to point out that we shouldn't suppress or repress our anger but instead be quick to catch it before we act on it. If we can do this, we will see that the anger or other negative emotion is purely ego-driven and it will quickly dissipate.
If we try to repress our negative emotions and push them into our subconscious mind, they only gain more influence over us and strengthen what Jung called "The Shadow". Baba regarded hypocrisy as the worst of failings and emphasised that we must not pretend to be what we are not. This prohibition extends to the way we see ourselves. If we are troubled by anger, lust or jealousy, then we must acknowledge this and not pretend to be free of these negative emotions. The psychological tendency to suppression is encouraged if we have an idealised notion of what a spiritual person should be feeling. Suppression can lead to repression in which an individual genuinely believes that he or she is free of troubling emotions. This is no longer hypocrisy but delusion and this brings disaster in one form or another.
So neither suppression or repression is to be encouraged. Instead we should strive as far as possible not to act on our feelings of anger, lust, jealousy etc. Firstly the thought arises and then almost instantly an accompanying desire to give it expression arises. If we are quick enough, we can catch the thought, observe it and allow its energy to dissipate. Often we will not be quick enough and in that case the impulse to act can be suppressed while still holding the thought and its accompanying emotion in our consciousness.
Baba would constantly goad his mandali into feeling angry or jealous by praising those who were undeserving of praise and criticising those who thought themselves deserving of praise. This served to grind down their egos. Situations in our own lives that arouse similar emotions can serve the same purpose. If someone insults us, our ego is quick to rise to our defence because that is its nature. When this happens, we simply need to observe this and recognise that the ego is simply doing its job. Human consciousness is capable of this objectivity whereas animal consciousness is not.
The following explanation by Baba in January of 1939 is instructive concerning the difference between a Perfect Master and a person of normal consciousness:
Dr. Deshmukh arrived from Nagpur to see Baba in Jabalpur. His mind was quite troubled and he told Baba that people were asking him why Baba was calling himself “God.” They were saying, “Isn’t this the expression of his ego? Isn’t he a supreme egotist?” Deshmukh did not know how to answer them. To pacify Deshmukh, Baba gave this explanation:
In all that a God-Realized soul or an ordinary man says or does, the “I” in him asserts itself. The difference between the two is that the “I” in the ordinary man is limited, whereas in the God-Realized being it is unlimited. If Deshmukh says, “I have written the book,” it is the limited “I” in Deshmukh asserting a certain job he has done. But when I say, “I am God,” it is the unlimited “I” asserting its universal aspect.
The limited “I” must go for the unlimited “I” to take its place. The limited “I” is like a seven-headed demon. The seven heads of lust, anger, greed, attachment, pride, jealousy and hatred must be killed so thoroughly that not even the slightest trace remains. When the false “I” is completely destroyed, another “I,” which is Real and Unlimited, takes its place.
Wednesday, January 12, 2022
Walking Far From Home
I was listening to Iron and Wine's "Walking Far From Home" from the album of the same name and was intrigued by the lyrics that contain a myriad of images. Here are the lyrics:
Walking Far From Home
Iron & Wine
I was walking far from home
Where the names were not burned along the wall
Saw a building high as heaven
But the door was so small, door was so small
I saw rainclouds, little babies
And a bridge that had tumbled to the ground
I saw sinners making music
And I dreamt of that sound, dreamt of that sound
I was walking far from home
But I carried your letters all the while
I saw lovers in a window
Whisper, "Warn me like time, warn me like time"
I saw sickness blooming fruit trees
I saw blood and a bit of it was mine
I saw children in a river
But their lips were still dry, lips were still dry
I was walking far from home
And I found your face mingled in the crowd
Saw a boat full of believers
Sail off talking too loud, talking too loud
I saw sunlight on the water
Saw a bird fall like a hammer from the sky
And a woman on a speed train
She was closing her eyes, closing her eyes
I saw flowers on a hillside
And a millionaire pissing on the lawn
Saw a prisoner take a pistol
And say, "Join me in song, join me in song"
Saw a car crash in the country
Where the prayers are like weeds along the road
I saw strangers stealing kisses
Giving only their clothes, only their clothes
Saw a white dog chase its tail
And a pair of hearts carved into a stone
I saw kindness and an angel
Crying, "Take me back home, take me back home"
Saw a highway, saw an ocean
I saw widows in the temple to the Lord
Naked dancers in the city
How they spoke for us all, spoke for us all
I saw loaded linen tables
And a motherless colt and it was gone
I saw hungry brothers waiting
With a radio on, radio on
I was walking far from home
Where the names are not burned along the wall
Saw a wet road form a circle
And it came like a call, came like a call
From the Lord
Source: LyricFind
Songwriters: Samuel Ervin Beam
Walking Far From Home lyrics © Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
Figure 1: source |
The song has obvious religious overtones but the third and fourth lines especially caught my attention:
Saw a building high as heaven
But the door was so small, door was so small
This seems to be a reference to a passage in the Gospel of St. Luke (see Figure 1) and the Gospel of St. Matthew, that is translated as:
Enter by the narrow gate. For the gate is wide and the way is easy that leads to destruction, and those who enter by it are many.
For the gate is narrow and the way is hard that leads to life, and those who find it are few.
(Matthew 7:13-14 – English Standard Version)
OR
Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it.
But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it.
(Matthew 7:13-14 – New International Version)
Figure 2: source |
It's an easy song to play on guitar. I've worked out the melody and here are the chords, courtesy of Ultimate Guitar:
STANDARD TUNING
CAPO on I
ALL CHORDS RELATIVE TO CAPO
G D
I was walking far from home
Em C
Where the names were not burned along the wall
G D
Saw a building high as heaven
Em C
But the door was so small, door was so small
This the best reference that I found to an interpretation of all the lyrics (source):
"I was walking far from home
Where the names were not burned along the walls"
The Revelation uses imagery of the New Jerusalem having 12 foundations with the names of the 12 Apostles written on them, and 12 gates with the names of the 12 tribes of Israel written on them. Seems like an image of Sam's own personal spiritual journey of metaphorically leaving the Holy City.
"Saw a building, high as Heaven
But the door was so small, door was so small"
"Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it." -Jesus, Matthew 7:13. This could be Sam expressing what the church, or at least church culture, looks like from the outside--a big city with tiny gates. Jesus criticised the religious leaders of His day because they "taught as doctrine the commandments of men" and because of that they "neither entered into the Kingdom of God nor allow(ed) those who would do so to enter."
"I saw sinners making music
And I dreamt of that sound, dreamt of that sound"
If we go with the idea of this narrative of someone leaving this "Holy City" that represents restrictive church culture, Sam's hearing the music of the world and being enthralled by it. It could be that these 'sinners' are people who were classified as sinners by those in the Holy City and refused entry, yet their music is so beautiful.
"I was walking far from home
But I carried your letters all along"
Many Evangelicals like to refer to the Bible as a letter from God to man. Most of the New Testament is a collection of letters written to early churches by the Apostles. Sam was walking far from home, but he was still holding onto God in his heart, even though he was out in the world that those in the Holy City separated themselves from.
"I saw lovers in a window
Whisper want me like time, want me like time"
Sam sees people searching for one of our most fundamental desires and needs, love, and finding it in each other, in whatever flawed form it takes.
"I saw sickness bloom in fruit trees
I saw blood and a bit of it was mine"
Jesus often compares believers to trees who bear fruit, good or bad. "Bad fruit does not come from good trees, nor good fruit from bad trees." Sam could be for the first time seeing flaws in the people of the Holy City who would personify themselves as good trees. As for the blood, it's pretty simple that nobody makes it out of life without some wounds, and Sam at this point has left the sterile environment he was used to.
"I saw children in the river
But their lips were still dry, lips were still dry"
"Children"---Jesus loved children, and He said to His disciples, "unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Therefore anyone who humbles himself like a child will be the greatest in the kingdom of heaven." "River"---Jesus said "Whoever believes in me, as the Scriptures say, 'Out of his heart will flow rivers of living water."
I define those terms to explain my interpretation. These children are in the river, which perhaps means they're under the influence of their own Christian families and role models, yet their lips are still dry. Jesus was speaking to a woman at a well outside her city in Samaria--He was, in a way, 'walking far from home' Himself--and He told her, "Whoever drinks of this water will soon be thirsty, but whoever drinks of the water I give them will never be thirsty again." If these kids were drinking of the living water that Jesus gave, they'd never be thirsty again, but their lips are dry. This means Sam sees these kids who are suffering because of the emptiness of their parents.
"I was walking far from home
And I found your face mingled in the crowd"
Walking through the world and being acquainted with all these people, though they're all flawed and imperfect, he still finds God in their midst. Jesus said "The kingdom of God is not coming in ways that can be observed, nor will they say, 'Look, here it is!' or, 'Look over there!'; for, behold, the kingdom of God is in your midst." He's everywhere if we want to find Him. Jesus didn't spend hardly any time with religious people or in temples or synagogues, He ate with publicans, prostitutes, drunks, and sinners, which got Him criticized by the religious leaders of His time, and it likely got Sam criticized as well.
"Saw a boat-full of believers
Sail off talking too loud, talking too loud"
Out there in the world, Sam finds believers who aren't perfect, they're too loud, but they're in boats talking loudly together. They're loving each other, which Jesus said the whole world would recognise His followers for.
"I saw sunlight on the water
Saw a bird fall like a hammer from the sky "
Jesus said He saw Satan fall like lightning from Heaven. After this, the lyrics take a darker turn to show greed, chaos, disaster, despair, but there are still glimmers of light. Seeing as all this happens when the bird falls from the sky, we can assume these things are directly related, and Sam's trying to make a point that evil isn't from God's hand. Things look up when the angel cries out "Take me back home, take me back home," and we come to this imagery:
"Saw a highway, saw an ocean
I saw widows in the temple of the Lord"
Once Jesus was in a temple and He saw the rich people and the Pharisees making extravagant offerings and gifts on the altar, but He saw one poor widow place a single copper coin in the offering plate. He observed, "This woman has truly given more than any of the others." Sam could be making the point that Jesus was making, it's not about extravagance or making a show, it's about the sincerity of the gift.
"Naked dancers in the city
How they spoke for us all, spoke for us all"
In the Old Testament, King David was bringing the Ark of the Covenant which represented the presence of God on earth back to Jerusalem. He lead the whole city in worship in the form of dancing; he himself wore an ephod which wasn't very modest at all and danced his heart out. When he got home, his wife jumped onto him and said basically, "You've made a fool of yourself and showed yourself to all the women in town." His reply was, to sum it up, "I'm just getting started making a fool of myself. You're gonna think I'm a pure heathen by the time it's over with." A whole lot of churches are critical about the way we choose to worship. More pointless man-made laws. Again, it's not about extravagance or looking good, it's about sincerity.
"I saw loaded linen tables
And a motherless colt then it was gone"
Jesus' last stretch of work was a week in Jerusalem. He fulfilled an ancient prophecy by entering the Eastern Gate on a donkey, or a colt. He'd sent His disciples to get it from a house on the road, and He said that if anyone asked what they wanted with it, to tell them, "The Lord has need of it." The loaded linen tables refer to traditional artistic imagery of the Last Supper which happened in Jerusalem. Sam's purpose could be another way of illustrating willing surrender in contrast to that Holy City mentality.
"I saw hungry brothers waiting
With the radio on, radio on"
The disciples arrived to their private Passover feast, and they didn't start until He arrived, as was traditional not to begin without their master/teacher. They likely sang songs or cut up to pass the time. Sam could be trying to paint a picture evocative of the humanity of Jesus and the Apostles, rather than the sterile imagery we see too often from the "Holy City."
"I was walking far from home
Where the names were not burned along the wall
Saw a wet road form a circle
And it came like a call, came like a call from the Lord"
After taking this dirty road from the Holy City all the way through the world, Sam comes back home when the Lord calls him. Maybe he left because of disillusion with the people, maybe he ran from God Himself, but it's clear that Sam found Him in the end, and He doesn't look like what he was used to picturing when he thought of Him.
Blood Testimony on September 12, 2014


